Have you ever feel so lonely being in a room full of people? And sad having so many reason to me happy? Cause that's how I feel tonight and I KNOW it doesn't make any sence to me but I can't help it. I should be full of joy and I only have tears inside. And I though I had program my self to look the bride side and cause will HELP ME to be happy. Cause I have all the reason to do so. I told my selft I wasn't gonna feel like *that* anymore because WHAT I want will come to me when I NEED IT not just WHEN I WANT IT. But tonight, tonight I feel like I NEED IT now and I feel like *that* again.